I happen to have a very empathetic heart.
I wear my heart on my sleeve, my emotions are usually written all over my face, and I take things to heart. I’m a very sensitive soul. And while I love how empathetic I am and how generous my heart is, I don’t love being taken advantage of and forgotten about. I don’t love putting my life on hold to help other people only to be ignored. And I certainly don’t love feeling like I’m not good enough.
Recently I’ve really been questioning why I do the things I do.
Why do I put myself in the position to be treated badly? I mean, why not just stop helping out and just look out for myself and my family? Why not confront the people who make me endure less than stellar treatment? Well for one, I’m not a confrontational person. At all. In fact, I despise confrontation and the most you’ll get from me is a passive-aggressive comment and maybe a side-eye, but that’s even pushing it. The truth is… I don’t want to change. I don’t want to stop having a good, caring heart. I don’t want to stop helping people out. I don’t want to stop being “the better person.”
I know that probably sounds a little crazy but honestly, that’s just who I am. Whether you treat me kindly or badly, I will help you out. I will comfort you and offer compassion, I will find ways to make your life easier. And maybe that makes me a glutton for punishment, but you know what? That’s okay. Because if it takes me turning into a completely different person in order to get treated better, then I’ll take the unfair treatment.
I love the heart I have and who I am.
I can only hope that those who truly matter the most, love that about me, too.